4:30 a.m.

may sound like an early hour to get up. But when your a mommy sometimes ya gotta do what ya gotta do to get some "ME" time. Turns out it was a great idea. I read my email uninterrupted, read the paper, went to the gym and worked out, came home and showered and hopped back into bed just in time to nurse the wolverine. Then we got up and had breakfast.I cleaned the kitchen while he "helped". Then it was client calls while he played. I finished the laundry. We read and played in every closet in the house...which is his current fascination...closets. Then he went down for an early nap and i ate lunch. He woke up and i laid down with him and fell asleep and awoke just in time for playgroup. Whew!!

Of course at playgroup he was a little craggy.....but hey its 7:45 pm and he is asleep so we finished the day on a good note.

NEXT UP: Farewell to Julie and Daniel....and have a safe trip to Germany. You both will be missed. Please keep in touch. Its always sad to see friends move.


If you havent checked out todays fugs...do so.....http://gofugyourself.typepad.com/

This is hilarious......http://feministing.com/GoodHousewife
Keep in mind that the article is for real....albeit in 1955. If you notice any similarities to your own home life....pick up your purse right now, take out your car keys, walk calmly out the door, get in your car and drive far far away.

Et Tu' Mississippi???!!!

First came Hurricane Katrina and her wake and now this....geesh...Me and the hubby moved out of Mississippi just in the nick of time.

Following in the recent footsteps of TX, GA, & possibly TN...MS has passed a law banning sex toys...
“A person commits the offense of distributing unlawful sexual devices when he knowingly sells, advertises, publishes or exhibits to any person any three-dimensional device designed or marketed as useful primarily for the stimulation of human genital organs or offers to do so or possesses such devices with the intent to do so.”

Listen people...youve got alot worse problems to worry about right now then people gettin' their groove on with some plasic and batteries. There are still people living on the coast with HURRICANE SEASON upon them in TENTS and TRAILERS for goodness sake!!!! PRIORITIES PLEASE!!!!!

on a personal note- Me and my girlfriends bought many a wonderful vibrator and sex toy in MS...we braved the sex shops to fulfill our shopping needs in person instead of the cowardly people who buy online. I would hate to see all those people put out of business AND the community left with nowhere to shop on a late Friday night when they are feeling frisky.



NEXT UP:

Jenna Elfman has apparently gone the way of the bobble headed, emaciated actresses. I flipped by her soon to be cancelled sitcom and thought for a second they had replaced her with a skeleton in a wig. LADIES OF HOLLYWOOD PLEASE STOP GETTING THINNER!!! You women were already too thin to begin with, what is with the race to be the closest to a living stick figure....its gross. The reason i only watched Schindlers List once was because (although it was a wonderful film)i found the imagery of starving people too disturbing. WHO KNEW that the trend of Hollywood starlets and fashinistas this year was to borrow body images from the Holocaust.
Its ghastly.

And if another actress comes out with her confession of an eating disorder i am just going to scream!!!! These are not revelations people...weve known all along you all have a problem. Get help and move on. Stop trying to make us feel sorry for you for playing Hollywoods game.

****This rant was brought to you by a woman on her 8th day of eating no sugar.


Happy Birthday Amelia. Seems just like yesterday that you were born. Now six years later my niece is getting grown up so fast. I love you a ridiculous amount....the world became a better place when you arrived.


Good night room. Goodnight moon. Goodnight wolverine, not a moment too soon.

V for Vacation ...as in..i need one...

So Sunday afternoon i highstepped it to the movie theater with Maria. We were babyfree. I got there 30 minutes too early so i kicked back in the car and rocked out to some tunes. What a nice change of pace. We saw V For Vendetta. I liked it...it was full of interesting things to think about. Alot of questions about the politics of fear, government of the people, terrorism vs. freedom fighters...and probably at its heart fascism VS anarchy (at least from the source material which was a graphic novel put out in the 90s with the same title). I wont write anything more..no spoilers...the hubby hasnt seen it yet so im banned from discussing it. But i would give it a B. Mainly it was just great to get out on my own for a few hours with a friend. Sometimes i think i forget im more then just a mother. Im a whole person with a myriad of interests, thoughts, and feelings. Im sure the wolverine will be bettter off in the long run if i remember that and nurture myself on occassion.


So day 6 of the NO SUGAR plan. Im impressed we have lasted this long. The first four days were BLECH. I had headaches, and cravings, i was cranky, and in a foggy haze. It was alot like coming off a drug addiction come to think of it. Who knew sugar had such power. The main obstacle i think in the remaining 8 days is growing bored with the allowed food and the pure unadulterated laziness that causes me to reach for the phone at dinnertime and call up Donatos. I thinkwe can ride it out...but then the fun really begins. We have to take what we have learned and apply it....keep a watch on the calories...make good choices...stay away from the evil SUGAR...and actually use our YMCA membership instead of just paying them $66 a month for a plastic membership card to hold my keys on.


I finally saw The Importance of Being Earnest...the hubbys play...he did a fine job directing it. Its the first show ive seen in forever that i actually laughed aloud in. Boy that felt good. More plays need to inspire belly laughs. The audience was really responsive and seemed to love it. Yaaay Hubby director. All those longs days and nights with the wolverine were worth it. Though i must admit i am looking forward to a break from theatre....its very hard to juggle your theatrical schedule with our parenting schedule.


Melinda had an idea of getting together with other women and doing potluck and creating something...quilting, knitting, etc. I like the idea. IM not sure what to do but it could be fun. I love playgroup but lets be honest...those of us with toddlers dont really get the benefit of the chit chat anymore. Im too busy either chasing the wolverine around and keeping him out of stuff or trying to get him to nap since now playgroup and his nap have collided. I still appreciate the company...its just more stressful then it once was. So i guess im always on the lookout for some down time...and some fun.

Yaay to Laura who went off for a couple of days witha friend to Gatlinburg. Thats WITHOUT the baby....who stayed home with daddy. I applaud you....a brave mommy who realized her need and made it happen. Oh i might even be a little envious. I dont see anytime in the near future where i will be overnighting without the wolverine. Part of it is me...im just not ready yet...and part is him...he relys very heavily on me at nightime. Im sure that will fade over the coming months (right?!) but for now i will have to be satisifed with living out that fantasy vicariously through other mommys. Hope you had a blast!

IM obviously playing catch up here....im horrible at keeping up with this blog.

Here is a question for anyone who is reading this...(all 4 of you)....What music is in your CD player/ stereo/ car right now. Anything i should be listening to? The last few days we've played Johhny Cash greatest hits, Pearl Jam (1st album), a PASTE magazine CD that includes that crazy ortho-jew-rasta-rapper guy and Counting Crows greatest hits. Plus ive sung my fill of kiddie songs to the wolverine. I think he like it when me and the daddy duet Johhny and June. He sways along and claps.

"Early one mornin' while makin' the rounds.....

I took a shot of cocaine and I shot my woman down"...........man i love Johhny Cash.

Anyway, the hubby is putting the wolverine down for the night. (well until he wakes up in an hour wanting to nurse.)We rented RED EYE to watch and bought a bottle of wine. Its another hot night of the marital version of a date. We went out to eat with some friends and their children earlier...so for us, its been a BIG night. Whoooeeeee!!!! If you add in our trip to the grocery store this afternoon and the chocolate peanut butter cups we ate, plus our family nap, this has been a major Saturday at the Casa del Davis.

Alright the hubby and i were discussing movie ratings earlier. We are both appalled that extreme and senseless violence in movies only garners an R rating but anything sexual it seems gets the NC17. I mean personally i would rather see some artistic soft core anyday over torture and sicko violence for kicks. Wouldnt you? What is wrong with people??!!!

Alright....the wolverine is asleep...gotta run...let the hot night of married fun begin.


oh...side note...The importance of being Earnest got reviewed in todays paper...the hubby was lukewarm about it. Anyone up for a play? I really need to go see it. I havent yet.

Stand by your man.....

The hubby is directing a play at AGL and it opens this weekend. He puts in long hours all in the name of art. I guess the least i can do is schill his stuff on my blog. Here is a link to an interview the Lexington Herald Leader did http://www.heraldleaderphoto.com/multimedia/being/earnest.html

Its pretty cool....turn up your speakers.

I havent seen the entire production yet. I have gone to one rehearsal but ended up strolling the wolverine around most of the time trying to keep him quiet. You know how that goes. But i figure it must be watchable since he is the director and he has a great cast too.

Anyone interested in going holler at me....im thinking of going Friday night.

Oscar buzzzzzzzzzz.................................

Its your last chance to get your Oscar votes in. Now that ive actually seen a few movies of late i think some of the most deserved are going to get looked over. Take for instance Terence Howard.....His performance in Hustle and Flow was outstanding and is my vote for best male actor last year. I thought i would hate this film and it wound up being my favorite. Its the only picture(outside of Walk the Line which doesnt count because i had sentimental attachments to that one) that got me jazzed and left the hubby and I singing afterwards for days. Do you know the kind of looks i get in public ....its not everyday you see a mommy toting around a baby at the grocery store singing "ITs hard out here for a pimp...."

Anyway...once you have seen Terence in both Hustle and Flow playing the memphis pimp and then watch him playing a most uptight black movie executive in Crash...well the man has got some chops. He is my best actor of 2005.


Will anyone even watch the Oscars??? I agree with Laura..old habits die hard...so i will probably sit up and watch and when the wolverine wakes up inevitably 30 minutes into it i will grab him up and nurse him while i indulge.

Over the river and thru the woods....

Grandmother is coming to visit us today. Hopefully she will be here by lunch. the wolverine will be thrilled to see her. So will I. Yaaaaay!!!! Of course the trade off is the hubby is going on a business trip for a few days.

MARCH 2006 In like a lamb,out like a lion? Our 60ish temps today dont bode well for a nice end to the month weather wise. Blech...long winters stink.


So a friend of my sisters has written and published a book. Supposedly i will get a copy since i think awhile back i sent in some suggestions. Honestly i cant remember because it was during this last year when i havent slept long enough stretches to actually make memories. But im excited for her...and i cant wait to read the book.
The title is "What Haven't They Told Me: Practical Tips for Surviving and Thriving During Baby's First Year." Im sure some of you could probably fill a book yourselves after months of mommyhood.


And just for fun.....here is a link to a site i like to peruse when i need a good laugh...http://gofugyourself.typepad.com/ Its nice to know even the rich and well put together have off days.

Frakkin' Friday.....

aaahhh...A perfect evening....Good pasta, good wine, good sleeping baby, good hubby who brought home cheese sticks and Frakkin' good Battlestar Galactica. A perfect combo to take the week out with. It may not sound like much to some of you, but i cant imagine spending the evening any other way.

Isnt it funny how parenthood lowers the bar for a good time?!!! Now if i can just get a good nights sleep......

Little Sister Oh The Time Has Come......

anyway....so my BIG sister is planning a little rendevous with her hubby Friday night. He doesnt know yet. She is sending the hotel room key to his office Friday and plans on waiting for him there all sexied up laying on the bed doing her best come hither look im sure. The kids are staying with friends so they are spending the night. Its hot sex and adults only for them all night. How cool.

So Hope...i salute you....for making it happen...emphasis on the make.

I hope everything goes as planned....and that you get your world rocked. Exit hard working, always tired, unkempt mother of two, ENTER super sexy, ride him all night, super coiffed horny goddess.

WE will be calling Mike a cocksman by Saturday.

Wonder Boobs Activate....

Alright ladies.....your help is needed again...

Dear Supporter,

Tomorrow (Wednesday, February 22) our bill is on Consent Orders in the Senate. Although by definition this means opposition is not expected, there is the possibility of amendment. In fact, it could be the case that particular groups may ask for amendments specifying exceptions or special instructions for their particular circumstances. Without the ability to explain such situations here, imagine an affected group asking that the bill be amended to: exempt their particular establishments or to outline alternative requirements for that situation only. By mandating special provisions for specific circumstances, this could create an unfunded mandate for those specific environments.

Please contact your Senator immediately with the following message: "Please pass SB 106: An Act Related to Breastfeeding without amendments meant to specify accommodations for specific environments." Feel free to express why this is a bad idea (see my comments above or share your own opinion). Find your Senator's email here: http://www.lrc.ky.gov/whoswho/email.htm.

Thank you for your continued support. It has taken all of us to get our bill this far and it will take all of us to get it through without amendments of this nature!

--
Shannon Bridgmon Rinaldo
http://www.breastfeedingkentucky.com

All I Want For Christmas is my two front teeth....

Well i broke a tooth tonight. First time that has happened. Its one of the bottom front teeth, but you cant really tell because its the back that broke off. Weird. I have no idea how it happened. I was talking to the wolverine and the next thing i know there are pieces of my tooth in my mouth. Weird. I guess its a good think i work with a dentist. Tomorrow should be alot of fun. Will someone come massage my hands and arms while i get my dental work done? Who massages the massage therapist???!!!!

I think my mom has this problem. Crumbling teeth. One day they are fine and the next a piece chips off. Great. Also evidently in the dental world there is a saying "You lose one tooth for every child you have." I dont like those stats. As if i dont have enough to grumble about. Now i have to worry about my teeth falling out. Weird.

The wolverine bit me today and i realized he hadnt done that in over a week. That made me happy. He is using so many words. And for some reason he already seems to have a funky southern accent. He has started saying "hi" but its more like "hiiii".

THANKS MELINDA for those great pictures of playgroup. We should start an album...oooh...or a dvd...combine it with the video some of us have taken. A fun momento.

MOVIE REVIEW OF THE WEEK:
We rented War of the Worlds this weekend. I give it a B for a popcorn flick. It pulled several moments from the original which was cool. They could have ditched the subplot with Tim Robbins...that was totally unneccessary. And poor Dakota spent the entire movie looking progressively more terrified and filthy. I bet that was no fun to film. Tom Cruise did his usual three faces of acting. It worked. I liked seeing him as just a normal person and not some superhero or ultra cool guy. That is the nice thing about this story...the hero does not defeat the bad guy....Sidenote: The boy playing Cruises son was a doll. If I were 12 his poster would be all over my room.

Areeba Tequila!!!

Tonight i joined forces with another mother onboard the crazy train. Thanks Ashley and Owen for a fun evening of burritos, magueritas, and mayhem. I thank you...Tim and Logan thank you. Its nice to know someone out there is listening and is feeling somewhat the same...or at least understands. I think we are better mommys for treating ourselves to a good meal with friends and couple of drinks.


The lesson i learned tonight is to always answer your phone when your in a funk, because you never know ...the person calling may have just what ya need to feel a little better.

Hey Kell....get well soon...we missed ya.

Hey...if your reading this...whoever...tell me about sometime you were in a funk and someone pulled ya out.

Im going off the rails on a crazy train.......

So im obviously NOT out on a DATE like some of our other mommys. Oh no...my evening highlights consisted of getting a black eye from the wolverine when he whacked me with a book by accident, trying to make an appointment at the spa this weekend and being told they are booked, and then listening to my sister talk about her 11 1/2 pound weightloss as she waits for her galpals to arrive for an evening of pizza and fun.

Alright so this week hasnt been the greatest. Im starting to crack. I feel the need to either run at a high speed until i collapse or drink alot and eat loads of chocolate. Either way i need to get some perspective.

Im just another frazzled, burnt out mommy on the fast track to crazy, embittered, nagging town. All aboard.....

I cant even fall back on old faithful....ice cream....because i had to go and give it up for new years. 2006 is the year of no ice cream and no cookies. I thought giving them up would make a difference ....somehow encourage me to eat right and exersize and quit feeling so untogether. Well guess what??? I cant even feel good about staying off the cream for a month and a half because ive just replaced it with loads of confectioner goodies. Ive eaten my weight in chocolate covered almonds, cashews, peanuts, cranberries, pretzels,raisins....if it can be covered in chocolate and sold by the pound ive tried it in the last few weeks.

And so....reflection time....what am i doing? I obviously am in need of an outlet...something to help me cope on the days when i feel like im getting nothing done and feeling enclosed and becoming goo goo. (not as in goo goo cluster, another excellent goodie)

I should pick back up my yoga practice. I should start running again. I should read more. I should call friends more. I should force myself to concentrate and get some work done. But you know, when the wolverine comes a calling, whats a mommy to do? Its so easy to immerse yourself in the land of books and puzzles and toddlerhood and not even notice that youve left a good part of yourself somewhere in between breakfast and nursing and bathtime.

Doesnt it seem like a lifetime is packed into these first few years with our children? And doesnt it just fly by? Maybe i just dont want to miss anything. Maybe i figure this time ..and wolverine...are a heck of a lot more interesting then all my dumb stuff.

Boob Solidarity!!!!

Alright nursing mothers here is your chance to let your voice be heard and make a difference in the future of nursing mothers in Kentucky.

Here is an update on the Nursing Bill and they need our SUPPORT...for all you moms that nurse in public this is especially important. Dont just take it for granted that you can whip out the boob anywhere and feed or comfort your child. If you do it enough you know that eventually you will get flack for it. We need to ensure a supportive environment for our new mommys to encourage them to nurse. We all know its what is best for our babies......and it makes it easier when you dont have to worry about getting harrassed when nursing in public. So send in those emails and phone calls.


Dear Supporter,

This morning Doraine Bailey and I joined Senator Buford to testify for our bill at the Senate Judiciary Committee meeting in Frankfort. We each talked about why we feel that this is an important issue not only for ourselves but also on behalf of this bill's supporters. The Judiciary Committee voted unanimously to send SB 106 to the Senate floor for a vote.

While this is our first big victory, our bill has a long way to go before becoming a law. Please call your senator to ask him/her to support this bill when it comes up for vote. There is no way of knowing when it will come up, so call or email soon.

How to contact your Senator:
1. Find out who your senator is here http://www.lrc.ky.gov/whoswho/whoswho.htm

2. Email your senator about this bill. Find email addresses here www.lrc.ky.gov/whoswho/email.htm

3. Call the Kentucky Toll-Free Legislative Message Line at 1-800-372-
7181. You will first be asked for your name and address before being
asked for your message. You might say something like, "Please give
this message to (insert the name of your Senator). I am calling in support of SB 106, An
Act Relating to Breastfeeding Bill. We need this legislation because __________ and
it is important to me because __________. I'm asking for you to vote yes when it comes up for the vote."

Additional ways you can support this bill:
1. Write a letter to the editor of your local newspaper in support of this bill.

2. Help us spread the word by forwarding this email to tell others about this bill.
--
Shannon Bridgmon Rinaldo
http://www.breastfeedingkentucky.com

Mama Mia....

Yaaaay!!!! Mom is here for the week.....like an angel from heaven. The hubby leaves for a short trip tomorrow so she is here just in time. The wolverine loves Grandmother. She is chasing him around the apartment and he is squealing with joy. He has started using words and attaching them to objects and actions. His first real association was "shoe".....except he says it more like "shows". Now thanks to Daddy he also konws "shush"...and if he squeals too loudly he will then follow it with "shush". Grandmother taught him "touch" ...which has become his favorite word. He wants to be picked up so he can "touch" everything. Mommy is responsible for him saying penis and nipple.....i want him to know the correct words not some silly nickname.

OK..short entry....we need to go grocery shopping. And i think the wolverine is wearing out Grandmother....we have 5 more days to go so I cant let her tire out already. IM hoping she will be at playgroup this Friday if she isnt baby'd out by then.


Hope everyone is having a great week.

Because your mine, I walk the line.....

Well they announced the Oscar nominations today. I must say im unenthused. I can count on one hand the movies ive seen since the wolverine as born. Who has time??? We used to catch everthing that came out....we would go almost every weekend. I guess it was a hobby. I used to know a ridiculous amount of movie trivia, etc. Now that brainspace is taken up with everything there is to know about raising a one year old. Any air of mystery or intrigue that may have once surrounded me is loooong gone.....i am an open book...i am a busy, tired, worn out mommy.

So here is a list of the major Oscar category nominees....Place your bets and we will see who comes closest. And since many of you have seen as few of these as me it should be fun. I did see Brokeback Mountain this past weekend with a friend. She liked it more then i did. I thought it was alright....but the narrative didnt quite work for me. And Jake Gyllenhal and Anne Hathaway i thought didnt age well over 20 years...i just didnt believe them. Although Anne remided me so much of my aunt Linda that every time she came on screen in a different crazy wig and makeup and press on nails i laughed. Heath Ledger is just as good as everyone says. And Michelle Williams of Dawson Creek fame was really good.

Anyway..here they are:
. Best Picture: "Brokeback Mountain," "Capote," "Crash," "Good Night, and Good Luck," "Munich."
2. Actor: Philip Seymour Hoffman, "Capote"; Terrence Howard, "Hustle & Flow"; Heath Ledger, "Brokeback Mountain"; Joaquin Phoenix, "Walk the Line"; David Strathairn, "Good Night, and Good Luck."
3. Actress: Judi Dench, "Mrs. Henderson Presents"; Felicity Huffman, "Transamerica"; Keira Knightley, "Pride & Prejudice"; Charlize Theron, "North Country"; Reese Witherspoon, "Walk the Line."
4. Supporting Actor: George Clooney, "Syriana"; Matt Dillon, "Crash"; Paul Giamatti, "Cinderella Man"; Jake Gyllenhaal, "Brokeback Mountain"; William Hurt, "A History of Violence."
5. Supporting Actress: Amy Adams, "Junebug"; Catherine Keener, "Capote"; Frances McDormand, "North Country"; Rachel Weisz, "The Constant Gardener"; Michelle Williams, "Brokeback Mountain."
6. Director: Ang Lee, "Brokeback Mountain"; Bennett Miller, "Capote"; Paul Haggis, "Crash"; George Clooney, "Good Night, and Good Luck"; Steven Spielberg, "Munich."


Im going with Ang Lee for Best Director. I dont think the film will win but he has been screwed several times in the past (Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon, Sense & Sensibilities, The Ice Storm) PLUS since they arent going to win best film the academy will throw them this bone.

Best Film- Crash....I havent seen it, but it won the SAG award and the same people make up the academy.

Best Actor- Phillip Seymour Hoffman...the academy looooves to give supporting actors turned lead awards. These are the guys who are actually great actors but never get the lead roles because the are fat or look funny or arent a movie star. Again...i havent seen Capote....cant imagine a more boring biopic. I hope Heath or Joaquin get it...and Joaquin might be an upset...people would love to here his Johnny Cash tribute. And would love for him to accept in his honor. Never underestimate the academys love of human interest stories and dead people.

Best Actress- Reese Witherspoon- The academy loooves to give this one to pretty young starlets AND she is playing the beloved, now deceased June Carter Cash....i like Reese but the award SHOULD go to veteran stage actor Felicity Huffman whose turn as a man wanting to be a woman is supposed to be incredible. But hey...i havent seen either of these movies either...

Best supposting actor and actress- Paul Giamatti- the academy did a screw job on him last year when he didnt get nominated for Sideways and the year before when he didnt get a nod for American Splendor. The man is an acting machine but he gets looked over for Russel Crow types. Actress will probably go to Rachel WEisz for the constant gardener...she is pregnant and they just cant resist that. Again i didnt see either film. I would love to see Michelle Williams win simply because she used to be on Dawsons Creek.


Dont you hate it when your child is asleep and your holding them and when you put them down they wake right up....twice in a row....and then the phone rings...and its your mother in law....and then you just DONT have it in you to get that child asleep a third time. So then you decide to just wait until the hubby gets home at 10......aw well...the wolverine just smiled at me...he knows im typing about him.

Living it up, Living it up ,oh yeah, Friday night....

Well after a looong day, even longer week, even longer year (yeah at January 28th)....I just finished watching Battlestar Galactica. Its our weekly respite from thinking. Just sit back and watch. Its actually a wonderful show....many of you have heard me go on about it. But its not just my word...check outthis review...http://www.nationalreview.com/comment/suderman200601200838.asp

So todays playgroup was Romper Room. We had our biggest group ever with children ranging from about 9 weeks to 17 months. The boys still outnumber the girls but we are seeing an increase in girls lately. I love the differences among the group. Our age range for moms seems to be 19 to 36 and LUCKY me im the oldest. I never thought i would be the oldest mom in any room. ITs weird. I keep thinking....where are all the thirty and forty something moms(Maria i know your wondering this too)...i know they exist...the statistics prove that...and we cant walk past a magazine rack at the supermarket without seeing another aging starlet giving birth or adopting. Geez...i hate being part of that grouping. But im starting to be pretty impressed with this "younger" generation of mothers. I really admire them. And although not that many years seperate me from them i DO notice differences. I figure our group represent a pretty good cross section of mommys in Lexington and im seeing the trend in them to be stay at home mommys. They dont seem to feel as pushed to juggle a career and motherhood. Perhaps because they feel time is on there side? I envy there energy and their ability to put themselves together. I especially love seeing all of them nursing....and nursing in public.....YOU GALS ROCK!!!!

Its been a full 24 hours since The Wolverine has nursed. Ive been pumping and giving it to him in a bottle today. This is a first and a desperate attempt by this mom to encourage sucking and not biting. Thank goodness my sister gave me this bottle......i never thought i would use it though. I try not to be sad when i use it.....at least he is getting what he needs....and i know he loves being held even if he isnt actually latched on. Ive tried to give him alot of extra cuddling and holding too. Im just afraid he is going to not be able to latch on properly any more.

Tonight when i was holding him and bouncing him to sleep on the exercise ball he patted my chest (our sign for nursing) and i just cried. We had already tried to nurse beforehand and all he did was bite down and pull off...OUCH!!

ON a positive note.....Tim watched the wolverine for awhile tonight to let me get out and get some much needed space and perspective. Instead of getting a drink (which was my first thought) i went to the gym and worked out . It made me feel a little better.

Yaaay me.

Raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens......

Well i guess im now officially a modern mom. I have a blog. Driven to purge my desperate thoughts to page by one year of sleep deprivation, cold meals, no alone time, a ghost of a sex life, no memory capacity, blah blah..you know the drill. Nothing i am feeling or experiencing is new or different or unique from any other parent down thru the ages.....its just that its happening to me now. So i swear....no celebrity like indulgences of "How motherhood has changed my life" or "Made me a better person" or "Now i know the secrets to the universe".

Im learning i know little of nothing. But im coming to terms with my stupidity. At least im entertaining the troops....my one year old thinks im hilarious.

My child, who im going to refer to as wolverine (for various reasons) is almost 13 months old. Which by the way, when can i stop referring to his age in months?? Is there some rule of etiquette on this???

So FridayPlaygroup.....my oasis...my weekly pick me up....my reminder that im not in this war alone. And now there is a place to post updates about schedules or questions on things like "why wont my child stop biting me" or whatever.

Today im going to lament my current drama (each week brings on a new one, right?). My child will not stop biting me. Nursing has come to a screeching halt. We just cant seem to make it happen. Hopefully this will work itself out. Ive considered everything ..Maybe he is teething and feeling badly....maybe ive traumatized him when i scream like a banshee when he bites me so he is on a nursing strike.....maybe those big teeth are just in the way.......whatever the reason im just about at the end of my rope. Thank God for my sister who is the research queen for giving me some reassurances that this is not unheard of...and for giving me positive encouragement. She is right......this does not have to signal the end of nursing...Me and the baby are both still willing and wanting to nurse...we just are in a stooper right now....eventually it has to work out, right?????